The wait is done. I've had three weekly sessions out of the twenty I have been given. It's been supremely scary in some respects because I know I really have to put the work in to deal with the issues I have. I am also hopeful because this is my chance to properly heal and make emotional and intellectual understandings of what I've dealt with and find a way to move forward so I can have good and bad days and stay afloat.
I can't comment on how well it's going because I've only really just started. One thing that has come up is my coping mechanisms, the way I deal with myself when I feel low and feel particularly bad. My current toolbox consists of self-punishment and harm. Whilst sometimes it can give minimal relief, it ultimately doesn't help me as a person. I know that in my head. It was suggested to me that I should get a box and make it a comfort box.
|Phil the Autistm Awareness Bear pictured was too big for the box but he's included!|
Fill it with things that make me feel good whether it's nice smells, things I like touching and whatever makes me feel nice. So far, my box looks like this:
Lots of love and solidarity <3 XXX