Sunday, 28 December 2014

A Year of The Hairy Truth

So it's been exactly a year and two days since I officially embarked on my adventure of not only fundraising for the UK charity Rape Crisis but raising awareness of the consequences of being on the receiving end of sexual violence and campaigning to bring an end to rape and sexual assault.

It's been a rather interesting year to say the least. I've gone on to not only shave off & cut off my hair but I've spoken to Bucks Free Press and Fabulous magazine about my efforts, spoken with other survivors and have tried my best to help others in my situation. I raised over £1000 thus far for Rape Crisis. I've managed to achieve a little to say the least.

However I can do way, way more. I fully intend to.

2015 is going to be in with more fundraising. I'm embarking on my 30/30 challenge during April/May which'll see me go on many challenges including hosting a nerd quiz night, fasting for a day and busking to celebrate the end and the beginning. I am going to try and speak out more whether it's in publications or maybe hosting talks about my own experiences. I am also going to start a Tag The Bag where I can try and get well known people to cover a suitcase with their autographs then auction off to raise money again for Rape Crisis.

This is only the beginning point of my journey. Let's see what the next 12 months will bring.

Lots of love and solidarity. Always <3 XXX

Monday, 8 December 2014

Assistance Wanted: The 30/30 Challenge

This is a shout-out for assistance with my 30/30 Challenge in 2015.

As you may know, I am embarking on doing 30 charity challenges over 30 days in April/May 2015 to once again raise money for Rape Crisis. I cannot do some of these challenges all alone. I'm going to need help.

Here's a re-cap on the challenges I want to do and the dates they fall on:


  1. Busking in Cardiff in Doctor Who cosplay (Saturday 4th April 2015)
  2. Cinnamon challenge (Sunday 5th April 2015)
  3. The Weetabix challenge (Monday 6th April 2015)
  4. Nerd quiz night (Tuesday 7th April 2015)
  5. Swimming laps challenge - swim as many laps as I can in the space of an hour (Wednesday 8th April 2015)
  6. The doughnut licking challenge (Thursday 9th April 2015)
  7. Bike machine challenge - cycle as far as I can on a bike machine in the space of an hour (Friday 10th April 2015)
  8. Eating contest - eat soup, main meal and pudding as quick as I can against competitors (Saturday 11th April 2015)
  9. Wear nothing but purple day challenge (Sunday 12th April 2015)
  10. Twilight 'Take Back The Night' challenge (Monday 13th April 2015)
  11. A night of Monopoly challenge (Tuesday 14th April 2015)
  12. Paint eggs challenge - paint as many eggs as I can in the space of an hour (Wednesday 15th April 2015)
  13. Chunky Monkey challenge (Thursday 16th April 2015)
  14. Sourz Shots challenge (Friday 17th April 2015)
  15. Nude calender challenge (Saturday 18th April 2015)
  16. Cross-dressing fundraising party (Sunday 19th April 2015)
  17. Fasting challenge - eat nothing & only drink water for 1 day (Monday 20th April 2015)
  18. Spelling Bee event (Tuesday 21st April 2015)
  19. No swearing day (Wednesday 22nd April 2015)
  20. Chicken nugget challenge (Thursday 23rd April 2015)
  21. Cocktail challenge - make as many cocktails as I can in the space of an hour (Friday 24th April 2015)
  22. Ice bucket challenge (Saturday 25th April 2015)
  23. No talking day (Sunday 26th April 2015)
  24. Blindfold make-up challenge (Monday 27th April 2015)
  25. Happy Meal challenge (Tuesday 28th April 2015)
  26. Book challenge - read as many books as I can in the space of 8 hours (Wednesday 29th April 2015)
  27. Teddy bear picnic challenge (Thursday 30th April 2015)
  28. Bathe in a bath of soup for at least an hour (Friday 1st May 2015)
  29. Coffee morning hosted by cosplayers (Saturday 2nd May 2015)
  30. Busking in High Wycombe in Disney cosplay (Sunday 3rd May 2015)
Whether you want to participate in the nerd quiz, busk in cosplay or simply tuck into one of my cocktails please get in touch and let me know what you'd be interested in participating in. If you know people who may be interested, share the blog post and get the word out. I'll be setting up a JustGiving page in January so fundraising can begin for the whole 30 days. Anyone who participates will be credited for their assistance.

My 2014 fundraising challenge


I'm fundraising for Rape Crisis because I very much believe in their cause. Sexual assault and rape is a massive problem, funding from the government is not enough to cover the demand for help and we need to get the message out there that it is NEVER EVER justified to use sexual violence on anyone no matter who they are.



Lots of love and solidarity. Always <3 XXX

Tuesday, 2 December 2014

Repressed Memories

Just when you think you know everything... you realise you don't.

This has been an excruciating blog post for me to write. It has been a tough thing to discuss partly because I'm still trying to process it. I'm still trying to deal with it and just thinking about it has caused pretty bad anxiety attacks. The memory is raw and the flashbacks are brutal. Having said that, the entire point of baring my soul and telling my story is to not only help others in my position but raise awareness of the consequences of sexual violence and bring it to an end.

Just under two months ago I uncovered a lost traumatic memory relating to an experience of sexual violence. I'm not going to go into graphic detail as to what it is, when it happened and who was involved because I can hardly bring myself to acknowledge it happened at all. I'm struggling to power through writing this paragraph against shaking hands, a tight chest and a terrified heart. It temporarily turned off any sense of libido - in fact the idea of being touched was disgusting for a brief period. I struggled to leave the comfort of my bed, let alone the house. It totally threw off my appetite and I only ate because I essentially forced myself. In myself I felt increasingly isolated because I felt incapable of articulating my thoughts and feelings in a way that would make anyone begin to understand. I also started feeling disgusting and as if no one is going to want to go anywhere near me.

In this current point in time, I am feeling better but some days are a genuine struggle. Some days are so hard I really struggle to see a point. Other days I can keep going and feel genuinely good about other things and it doesn't really enter my mind. Discussing everything with my psychotherapist has helped significantly. Whilst I'm still having a tough time dealing with the raw emotions, I am determined to not let it stop me living my life, raising awareness of sexual violence or fundraising for Rape Crisis. It's just under 4 months till I start my 30/30 Challenge. Onwards and upwards.

Lots of love and solidarity <3 XXX